10 More!

Hooray!! Today, Tim has been serving the Lord for 14 months!! That leaves roughly 10 more months til he is home. I am looking forward to it so much. The more I date others the more I love and miss my missionary. Right now, I'm dating a guy named Chase. He really is a sweet guy and very much a gentlemen but he isn't my Tim. I have realized in the last 14 months that Tim really did spoil me when we dated. Not with earthly possessions, but in the way he was with me. He was always willing to sacrifice for me, but I never thought of it as a sacrifice. Maybe for him it wasn't but for the guys I date now, it is.

The relationship I had with Tim was both a giving and a receiving relationship. Tim wanted to make me happy and I wanted to make him happy. We never wanted what was best for ourselves but rather what was best for the other. Tim would always try to get me to pick what to do for the date. His reason being was that he wanted to make sure I was doing what I wanted, even when he didn't always enjoy it. He was quite stubborn about it at times! But you see, I am a pretty stubborn person myself! I would tell him that I was happy with doing whatever he wanted to do. Eventually, he ended up planning most of our dates. If I really had an idea we would go and do it, but I absolutely love that he would just plan it for me! This is just one small thing he did for me. It is among many of the things he did for me, like putting up with my dad, doing what he said he would, worrying about me when I honestly think he wouldn't, etc. Just a quick story that came to mind... This story starts when we graduated from high school. Neither one of us ever brought up the subject of breaking up when we went to different schools. It never crossed my mind that we wouldn't be together. Well I went home quite a bit on the weekends to see him and we talked every night before I went to sleep. I would spend every night with Tim on the weekends I was home. Sundays we would just hang out at one of our families house. I would say goodnight and drive home after our date. I am guilty in not thinking that Tim would worry about me when I drove back to Snow. I never called him when I arrived safe. Well, Tim came down a couple of times to visit me at Snow. When he would leave I told him that he had to call me when he got home. I couldn't ever really sleep til he called. He called me every time with out fail. One day I got to thinking and when we talked that night I asked him if he would like me to call him when I get to Snow. He said that he absolutely would like it! He told me that he would always think about me and that when he would talk to me the next night he was relieved to hear me answer the phone. Who knew?! What an amazing guy! I did much better at calling him, but I don't think I remembered every time...

Sorry for the side track! It just seems like no one comes close to the high bar that Tim placed. Chase is one of the closest but still hasn't hit that mark. To be honest I don't think he will hit it...

I have 10 more months until I find out if I can hit the mark that Tim has set for finding the one he loves... Pray for me!! I'm so nervous!!